Almost the end of my first year of university.

Well. It’s almost the end of my first year of university. Who would have thought i would have made it this far? Who would have thought I’d ever get to university level? I never did. All those years ago, a mere 7 years ago, I was in secondary school, finishing my GCSEs, and not doing very well at them. I’d sit at my desk, waiting for the tellings off, tellings off for me slacking at my work, which was my fault. Homework being incomplete, assignments not handed in by the deadline, and my lame excuses about the embosser, (a printer like machine, that converts electronic work into braille and prints it onto paper)  not working, and me “not being able” to finish the job. I had plenty of time, but let all my assignments get on top of me, which meant mental stress, tears, anxiety,  and what I call “cramming” forcing yourself to do as much as you can in one go. This, I was discovering, was not good. Yet I still did not heed my own warnings, or the warnings of my teachers. I thought they were wrong, did not know it all, and were picking on me, attacking me, and getting at me. Instead, I just kept on being defensive, getting angry, and accusing them of all sorts as I did not want to accept I, yes, I, was in the wrong. Did not want to face the “consequences” for my actions. As BF Skinner says in his theories and behaviour research,  that every action does indeed have consequences, and that you must face them. Yet now, I have the attitude of my teachers back then, surprisingly, a most severe and disciplined attitude. The result, is 70% or slightly lower, my highest being 75% in my assignments. I know the work will get harder, and I must continue to adopt this disciplined approach. I must not let myself down. I’ve come this far, and I must keep going. I will achieve. I will prove them wrong, those who thought it would be difficult. You will be proven wrong.


About samantha ash

I'm 24 years old, totally blind, and suffer from Epilepsy, which is controlled. My interests include Neurology, Psychology, anything to do with the weather, and other documentaries. I am also a classical singer, though not professional. I am studying towards a degree in Neuropsychology at University of Central Lancashire. I wish eventually, to pursue a career in neurorehabilitation, or in neuropsychology, in order to help those who have sustained traumatic brain injuries, Acquired Brain injuries, stroke, and other neurological conditions. I wish to help them to cope psychologically too, and help them to see the positive side to the life that they have now. As someone with a disability myself, I wish to tell those, "Do not say that you cannot do something. I do not wish to hear that. I wish to hear that you can, and you will succeed." If you enjoy what I post on here, feel free to comment, or contact me on or feel free to like my facebook page. Enjoy reading. :)
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