Reflections on fear, overcoming fear, and why I can’t seem to overcome it.

Hello All. I have forgotten to blog about last week’s swimming lesson. It went very well, and I eventually, though panicking, managed to swim on my back, and also learn the arm movements for swimming on my front. This week though, was, well, slightly challenging. I began the lesson, confidentally, but I paniced immediately, when they let go of me, in order to try and put me in the correct position. I always, for some reason, vocalise when anxious, and almost hyperventilate. My breathing increases, and I fight with who ever it is that is helping me, holding them tightly, in a vice like grip, sometimes growling at them, hyperventillating, teeth chattering, vocalising, moaning at them sometimes etc. I don’t know what it is, and why I struggle to overcome that first step, as it took 2 people helping me understand things this time. One moving away eventually, while the other supported me. It did though, go very well, and I managed to swim on m my back, kicking my legs, and in a slightly more balanced position. Now, I just have to overcome the fear, and constant panic I have, when learning something new, or knowing that I need to be moved in order to learn what ever it is, correctly. That’s easier said than done.


About samantha ash

I'm 24 years old, totally blind, and suffer from Epilepsy, which is controlled. My interests include Neurology, Psychology, anything to do with the weather, and other documentaries. I am also a classical singer, though not professional. I am studying towards a degree in Neuropsychology at University of Central Lancashire. I wish eventually, to pursue a career in neurorehabilitation, or in neuropsychology, in order to help those who have sustained traumatic brain injuries, Acquired Brain injuries, stroke, and other neurological conditions. I wish to help them to cope psychologically too, and help them to see the positive side to the life that they have now. As someone with a disability myself, I wish to tell those, "Do not say that you cannot do something. I do not wish to hear that. I wish to hear that you can, and you will succeed." If you enjoy what I post on here, feel free to comment, or contact me on or feel free to like my facebook page. Enjoy reading. :)
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2 Responses to Reflections on fear, overcoming fear, and why I can’t seem to overcome it.

  1. Jill liley says:

    Have you tried meditation Samantha? It may help. Xx

    Sent from my iPad


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